tomorrow 明日

明日から忙しくなって行くと思います。頑張れるかなあ？知りませんですが、皆さん元気だといいんですね。
I think it will be a busier days start tomorrow. May we all have the health to go through the hard days.
頑張ろう、皆さん！！

testimonials

I was just from friendster to look around. i didn't find any of the testimonials mentioning the person's weakness. Yeah... after thinking awhile... it is better to send a message instead of a testimonial when speaking about weakness. But i am hoping somebody will point out my weakness. Even in the testimonials. I had a little emotional play as I find people who does better than what I can do best. Sometimes i am so confident that I try to make more distance with those who are behind, yet i find out that somebody is in front of me. Since junior high, I have always wasted my time thinking about how i am until that moment; wasting my time checking my rank. What am i? some kind of superior envy?

wanna fix things

when i go home next month, i'll have the chance to start all from zero. For that opportunity, i'd like to make some plans, scheduling, such as things i should continue doing, things i should start doing (e.g.: study as hard so that i can graduate soon), things i should stop doing. This time is for my own good. People will say i've changed. I used to help anybody i can help, even though it means sacrificing myself. I was not able to reject someone's request of help. Still not sure i can do it now, but i have to.
I thought people whom i've helped will help me in the future. Umm... not really. Instead, people who seldom ask my help, has helped me quite often. How do i make the conclusion of these?
Today i saw a church. then i felt i missed the mass. I missed the holy bread. But still not sure was it God that i missed... or was it the custom that i missed.

Anybody has seen this drama?

世界の中心で、愛を叫ぶ
wanna know from women's point of view. It's is about a man who was left 16 years ago by his girlfriend. She passed away because of illness. Now he is good in career but he can't let things pass through, so he is still in grief, even after 16 years, still hoping that she is alive, things like that. I think he's dumb. Anyway the film is okay. Better than Meteor Garden I guess. I've never purposely watched meteor garden anyway. My Grandma did.

Battery made me panic

A week ago i read in a website saying that the battery of an ipod only last 18 months. The battery is not self replaceable, and before... Apple do not take the service of changing the battery. An advice of buying a new ipod was offered instead. It makes me shiver. Now apple has changed its policy and accept battery-replacing service for $99, which had not calm me down. So i look up for a good reliable information about maintaining battery life, which i found in http://www.batteryuniversity.com/ please check and find out if you like.
I'll give a summary for those who don't really want to spend their time reading all about batteries. But it will only about lithium battery, because nowadays.. almost all electronic gadgets are stuffed with lithium batteries.
じゃ、始めましょう。
1.Never let lithium battery become completely empty.
2.It is okay to charge the battery overnight. (There is no term as overcharged in lithium batteries)
3.Yet it is not neccesary to charge it for 8 hours the first time you use the battery.
4.Lithium battery accepts partial charge.
5.The term "300 cycle charges" does not carry the meaning of "how many times you plug the battery to the charger." So, you may plug your battery often.
6. Avoid lithium battery from heat. (this is mostly the problem of a laptop)
7. Battery is best if used at least every 1 week.
8. If you are not going to use the battery for a long time (10 days), never store it in 100% full capacity. Instead 40% capacity is advised.

That is what i learned, go check for your self to be sure. at http://www.batteryuniversity.com/

Internet, games, movies

those are the things that suck up my life. 誰か助けてえ～～～～～！！！！
but i never consider music responsible for it (^^) i just like music

i lost communicating ability

bersosialisasi... selalu sulit for me. gw ga flexible... kaku....
the word　違う feels so strong for me... soalnya terjemahannya = "salah". padahal kalo org indo nyatain bahwa lawan bicaranya salah ngerti... dengan bilang: "bukan". that's why... i think... i still can't get used to it. another one is 分かった。 krn kalo org indo cukup bilang iya untuk menyatakan affirmative. kalo sampe bilang "mengerti"... berarti ada sesuatu yang berat.. ato sesuatu yang annoying.... still can't get used to it either...... 困ったんだようね

What i'm facing, what they are facing

Entering the year 2005, i took some time to see how far i've gone, how far you guys have gone. Where i am standing, where you guys are standing. We have never looked back while we were rushing to the future... not until recently... some of us (i'm included in this 'some' portion), start to turn our head to the past... 少しずつ何か残した。 bit by bit... something is left behind in the past. The time when we had togetherness, solid friend-relations, faith in bestfriends. Times when we can dream freely to our wildest imagination. With friends we chase our dream. I had had a solid best friend. I had been into the most cool group. I experienced the feeling of being proud standing among best friends. Since these dreams have been fulfilled, there is no point chasing anymore. それに、it's i feel impossible to get a better one than what i had. It means.. you guys... who were there standing with me... will always be the best thing for me. Without noticing the changes... we start to walk seperately, individually... some are blessed with partner, then we start to go in pairs...
to be continued...

Dedicated to : NuGen, YAHJA, Aloy-ers

The missing link

While they say that there is a missing link on the evolution from ape to become human, there is also a missing link on male and female relation which is discussed in the dialog between Nicole Kidman and Tom Cruise in the movie Eyes Wide Shut (1999) minute 25,

愛してるぜベイベ

大好き！！最高！！

How do i know how i am?

自分のことはどうかどうやって調べる？
what makes people discriminate others? How can we stop people from discriminating others?