Need another opinion from girl

In my opinion, kindness is the most deadly weapon for guys. guys can stand from tedious flirts but will fall from a girl's intense kindness.
um, i wonder what it will be for girl's case.
i often hear stories that a girl take a kind boy as a friend with whom she feels comfortable to talk, and will someday take a boyfriend who chased her aggressively.
(in my case, if i wanna get a girl, being a kind guy didn't work. being cool and aggressive is more effective. once again, "in my case".)
「in my case」と言うことは僕の箱の中です。＾＾冗談だよー　（＾＾）ｖ

wanderer, traveler, vagabond

is it still possible nowadays to be a wanderer like Kuai Chang Caine? When one become a wanderer, will he have a place to go home? can someone be a wanderer because he is running away from home? i mean, from being binded into a particular society. Another question, is living meant for somebody else's sake or is it all for the self? If it's for our own benefit, then why do people feel sad when they are left by someone they know? the people around somehow have more regrets or sorry for the dying person compared to the dying person himself.
Anyway....i've been thinking awkwardly lately. Somehow i feel glad coz maybe this is my only chance left to be able to think about anything, any useless stuff.

Valentine's day

valentine's day in japan is about girls giving chocolates to boys. so it's just my luck ^^.
yet i didn't really make a harvest. well, valentine has never been so special for me.
Change topic. I usually never give a damn whether i make friends with somebody or not. I don't mind drawing a clear line that i don't go ot think the way a certain people do. but lately i feel that i've been dragging myself to be more forgiving, flexible, acceptant, but it's a kind of unconciously forcing myself. I feel less comfortable than i use to so i conclude that i don't like it. But i wonder what was the main cause that i unconciously forcing myself doing that thing.
once again, i hope you guys are having a great time in St.valentine's day.

suggestion of naming kids (dicuplik)

1. Nama itu mengandung do'a. Nama anak itu cermin harapan orang tua. Nama itu mengandung Do'a. Tetapi do'anya yang singkat saja. Kalau terlalu panjang nanti dikira Tahlil atau Wirid. Kalau dipanggil bukannya nengok, malah bilang "Amiinn.."

2. Nama jangan nyusahin orang Kelurahan. Nama anak mudah dibaca dan mudah ditulis. Meskipun tampaknya bagus, jangan pakai huruf mati yang digandeng-gandeng atau didobel-dobel (mis. Lloyd, Nikky, Thasya dll). Biasanya sama petugas Kelurahan akan terjadi salah tulis dalam pembuatan Akta Kelahiran, Kartu Keluarga, KTP dll. Nah... nggak enaknya lagi kalo kita minta revisi biasanya kena biaya lagi... dan prosesnya lama lagi.

3. Nama jangan cuma satu kata Minimal ada First Name, Nick Name dan Family name gitu loh.... Ini penting terutama kalo pas lagi ngurus Paspor atau Visa. Nggak jadi berangkat ke Amrik hanya gara-gara namanya cuma Prakoso atau Pamuji atau Paryono khan kesiaan...

4. Nama jangan terlalu panjang Nama yang panjang bererot bisa bikin susah si pemilik nama. Disamping susah ngingetnya, juga ngerepotin waktu ngisi formulir pendaftaran masuk Perguruan Tinggi Negeri (dulu MPTN). Itu lho.. yang ngitemin buletan-buletan pakai pensil 2B. Capeek khaan... Nama panjang seperti Siti Hartati Riwayati Mulianingsih Adiningrum Mekar Berseri Sepanjang Hari.... adalah sangat-sangat not-recommended.

5. Nama anak bersifat internasional Anak kita hidup dimasa depan, di era globalisasi dimana hubungan dengan dunia internasional amat sangat intens. Jadi jangan mempersulit anak dengan nama-nama yang sulit di-eja. Nama Saklitinov misalnya orang Jepang nyebutnya Sakuritino, orang Sunda bilang Saktinop orang Amrik bilang Sechlaytinove... Syusah khaaannn Padahal maksudnya Sabtu Kliwon Tiga November...

6. Ketahuilah arti nama anak. Jangan memberikan nama hanya karena enak diucapkan atau bagus ditulisnya. Nama Jalmowono memang sepintas enak diucapkan dan bagus kalo ditulis tetapi ketahuilah bahwa Jalmowono itu artinya Orang Utan.

7. Jangan pakai nama artis. Nama artis memang bagus-bagus, cuma masalahnya kalau artis itu kelakuannya baik... lha kalau jadi bahan gosip melulu khan jadi beban juga buat si anak.

8. Abjad huruf pertama nama anak. Huruf pertama "A" pada nama anak ada enak gak enaknya. Gak enaknya kalau pas ada ujian/test/wawancara sering dipanggil duluan. Gak sempet nanya-nanya ama temannya. Tapi kadang-kadang juga pas giliran dapat pembagian apa gitu, dapetnya juga sering duluan. Sebaiknya ambil huruf pertama itu antara D sampai K. Cukupan lah... Huruf depan Z... wah.. biasanya adanya dibawah...

Gross alert

久しぶりですね。僕ほかのブログを作ったから、時々あそこのブログに書いてる。
I've just eaten "crab's-egg bread". verryyyyyyy tasty. Now the eggs are all covering my teeth and it feels like "early morning", but it tastes great ^^. shck, shck...um.. yummie...
よろしかったら、ぜひ私の他のブログをご覧下さい。
http://blog.goo.ne.jp/tuing2ing　にございます。

Lost target

Another 2 weeks left for school. Did all the exams. What`s left are two essays and two reports which until now i haven`t got the will to start. i can`t write kana in this library` computer. jya, kimemashita, kyou wa ano futatsu no essay wo kaichau.

tomorrow 明日

明日から忙しくなって行くと思います。頑張れるかなあ？知りませんですが、皆さん元気だといいんですね。
I think it will be a busier days start tomorrow. May we all have the health to go through the hard days.
頑張ろう、皆さん！！

testimonials

I was just from friendster to look around. i didn't find any of the testimonials mentioning the person's weakness. Yeah... after thinking awhile... it is better to send a message instead of a testimonial when speaking about weakness. But i am hoping somebody will point out my weakness. Even in the testimonials. I had a little emotional play as I find people who does better than what I can do best. Sometimes i am so confident that I try to make more distance with those who are behind, yet i find out that somebody is in front of me. Since junior high, I have always wasted my time thinking about how i am until that moment; wasting my time checking my rank. What am i? some kind of superior envy?

wanna fix things

when i go home next month, i'll have the chance to start all from zero. For that opportunity, i'd like to make some plans, scheduling, such as things i should continue doing, things i should start doing (e.g.: study as hard so that i can graduate soon), things i should stop doing. This time is for my own good. People will say i've changed. I used to help anybody i can help, even though it means sacrificing myself. I was not able to reject someone's request of help. Still not sure i can do it now, but i have to.
I thought people whom i've helped will help me in the future. Umm... not really. Instead, people who seldom ask my help, has helped me quite often. How do i make the conclusion of these?
Today i saw a church. then i felt i missed the mass. I missed the holy bread. But still not sure was it God that i missed... or was it the custom that i missed.

Anybody has seen this drama?

世界の中心で、愛を叫ぶ
wanna know from women's point of view. It's is about a man who was left 16 years ago by his girlfriend. She passed away because of illness. Now he is good in career but he can't let things pass through, so he is still in grief, even after 16 years, still hoping that she is alive, things like that. I think he's dumb. Anyway the film is okay. Better than Meteor Garden I guess. I've never purposely watched meteor garden anyway. My Grandma did.

Battery made me panic

A week ago i read in a website saying that the battery of an ipod only last 18 months. The battery is not self replaceable, and before... Apple do not take the service of changing the battery. An advice of buying a new ipod was offered instead. It makes me shiver. Now apple has changed its policy and accept battery-replacing service for $99, which had not calm me down. So i look up for a good reliable information about maintaining battery life, which i found in http://www.batteryuniversity.com/ please check and find out if you like.
I'll give a summary for those who don't really want to spend their time reading all about batteries. But it will only about lithium battery, because nowadays.. almost all electronic gadgets are stuffed with lithium batteries.
じゃ、始めましょう。
1.Never let lithium battery become completely empty.
2.It is okay to charge the battery overnight. (There is no term as overcharged in lithium batteries)
3.Yet it is not neccesary to charge it for 8 hours the first time you use the battery.
4.Lithium battery accepts partial charge.
5.The term "300 cycle charges" does not carry the meaning of "how many times you plug the battery to the charger." So, you may plug your battery often.
6. Avoid lithium battery from heat. (this is mostly the problem of a laptop)
7. Battery is best if used at least every 1 week.
8. If you are not going to use the battery for a long time (10 days), never store it in 100% full capacity. Instead 40% capacity is advised.

That is what i learned, go check for your self to be sure. at http://www.batteryuniversity.com/

Internet, games, movies

those are the things that suck up my life. 誰か助けてえ～～～～～！！！！
but i never consider music responsible for it (^^) i just like music

i lost communicating ability

bersosialisasi... selalu sulit for me. gw ga flexible... kaku....
the word　違う feels so strong for me... soalnya terjemahannya = "salah". padahal kalo org indo nyatain bahwa lawan bicaranya salah ngerti... dengan bilang: "bukan". that's why... i think... i still can't get used to it. another one is 分かった。 krn kalo org indo cukup bilang iya untuk menyatakan affirmative. kalo sampe bilang "mengerti"... berarti ada sesuatu yang berat.. ato sesuatu yang annoying.... still can't get used to it either...... 困ったんだようね

What i'm facing, what they are facing

Entering the year 2005, i took some time to see how far i've gone, how far you guys have gone. Where i am standing, where you guys are standing. We have never looked back while we were rushing to the future... not until recently... some of us (i'm included in this 'some' portion), start to turn our head to the past... 少しずつ何か残した。 bit by bit... something is left behind in the past. The time when we had togetherness, solid friend-relations, faith in bestfriends. Times when we can dream freely to our wildest imagination. With friends we chase our dream. I had had a solid best friend. I had been into the most cool group. I experienced the feeling of being proud standing among best friends. Since these dreams have been fulfilled, there is no point chasing anymore. それに、it's i feel impossible to get a better one than what i had. It means.. you guys... who were there standing with me... will always be the best thing for me. Without noticing the changes... we start to walk seperately, individually... some are blessed with partner, then we start to go in pairs...
to be continued...

Dedicated to : NuGen, YAHJA, Aloy-ers

The missing link

While they say that there is a missing link on the evolution from ape to become human, there is also a missing link on male and female relation which is discussed in the dialog between Nicole Kidman and Tom Cruise in the movie Eyes Wide Shut (1999) minute 25,

愛してるぜベイベ

大好き！！最高！！

How do i know how i am?

自分のことはどうかどうやって調べる？
what makes people discriminate others? How can we stop people from discriminating others?

Merry Christmas

it's just an ordinary greeting from me... but i do really wish you have had best things throughout the year and will have more in the coming year. よいお年を

it's easy in the head but hard to tell

What can make a person change the way he acts? or the way he thinks? i say occurrence. not a good one. Bad ones instead. And... how bad must it be that it changes people? Then again... how is the result of the change? People rarely change into the way we want them to be.
Acceptance is easier to do, yet it's not preferable to us.
ごめんね。今度続きます

what do i ask?

i never thought i will get into this kind of situation. i need to ask a favor to a certain somebody just for the sake of that somebody. as actually right now i don't have anything to ask in particular. but in the other hand... i really need to do that. hmm... 面白い interesting. yet 面倒臭い.